The reason for my loss was simple

The reason for my loss was simple— Your command to bargain with the devil.
But the reason for your distance Was what truly broke me.
I had no choice But to sell my soul, And it was never fair For you to leave that decision solely to me.
I lacked the strength To defy your command.
It is so dark here That even if, one day, You were to return my soul to me, It would no longer cling to my damp skin.
I have become so weak, so afraid That I no longer even Have the strength To pull the trigger.